I am getting to old for this!!

So my brother has moved back from FL. We left yesterday at 11am to go back to FL and get the rest of his stuff. We hauled balls down there loaded his truck and the UHaul trailer up and hauled balls back. We got home at 7am took a little nap then had to unload the trailer and get it back by 11am. I slept like crap the night before, thanks stupid insomnia, and then was up until 7am with only about an hour nap on the drive down to FL. Of course all this help that was suppose to be there either didn't show up or couldn't help till we were about done , then wanted to stand around and chit chat. So why am I still up and not dead to the world, because that little nap I took at 7am gave me my second wind.

What a week

I have never been so glad to have a week over. It started at that I was missing J so bad. All I wanted to do all week is cry. I went to get my oil change and by the time I got home I had run over a razor blade and had to get a new tire. J broke his glasses and trying to get his prescription from his eye doctor was horrible. The place online that I had to order his eyepro from kept telling me that the eye doctor had given me the wrong prescription. GRRRRR. My nephews' dog got sick, so that was scary for a while. We were scared she was going to die. Then Saturday night a guy I went to high school with lost his 2 year battle with cancer. He was such an inspiration. In all his trial and tribulations his faith never once wavered. He kept a smile on his face to the very end. I hope that if I ever have to go through something terrible I can have the fight that he has had the whole time. May you rest in peace Todd Clendenon.

Home from Alaska

I got home today from spending 10 days with my good friends Steven and Terran. It was so much fun and so relaxing. The first couple days we didn't do a whole lot, but on Saturday I went to my first airshow. It was so neat to watch. We also drive around Cook Inlet and went to the Conservatory. I got to see moose and bear. The only thing I really wanted to see that I didnt get to was the Aurora Borealis. I really needed to get away. Even though I have only had about 2 hours in the past 36 hours I feel so refreshed.

What a week!!

I got home late last night from a week at my Grandpa's house. Started out like any other week up there. Go to put flowers on my Grandma's and my great Grandparents' graves, spending time with my family, eating my cousin's amazing Italian food and then BAM!!!! My week is shot to hell. My aunt took me and my two 10 year old cousins to Great America. We are having a great time riding roller coasters, its not to hot or to crowded. I get off one ride and I fall on some broken pavement. I ended up tearing the ligaments in my right ankle. The guys from Six Flags were nice enough to take me to the Naval hospital instead of a civilian hospital so that worked out great. But the rest of my week consisted of sitting with my leg up in the air and having to be waited on hand and foot. Now I know must people would think that would be wonderful, but honestly it is not. I am to independent to not be able to do simple tasks for myself. It is really embarrassing to be 28 and have to have your Mommy help you shower since I can't stand. I love my Mom and I know she loves me, but I have been showering by myself for years now. I go to my primary care dr on Tuesday. I am praying for good news, especially since I am leaving on Wednesday for 10 days in Alaska.

To Grandpa's house I go.

So I leave Friday morning to go to my Grandpa's house. I can't wait. I have been going up there every summer since I was a little girl, minus a couple years after my Grandma died, that I just could not bring myself to go. It is one of the few places that I feel I can sit back take a deep breath and say aahhh!!! It is almost like there can be no stress of everyday life when I walk through the door. Things just don't matter and if they do Grandpa will take care of them. I definitely need to have a breather. I have been so tightly wound since J left. I hope it will really do me some good to get away from "real life" and go to Grandpa's. I can't wait to see my uncle, aunt, and cousins. My one cousin just opened a restaurant so i will definitely have to check that out. I already know he is an awesome cook. I am so proud of him for following his dreams.

After I get back from Grandpa's, I will have about 3 days and then its off for my adventures in Alaska. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends that are so willing to open there arms and welcome me into their home and take time off work just to keep me entertained.

J is having a rough few days. I wish there was something I could say or do to make it better. It is just so hard when he can't say everything that is going on. All I get is bits and pieces of what is going on. I understand the importantance of OPSEC and understand fully that he can't tell me stuff, but it would be so much easier to understand where he is coming from if I had the whole story and not just what he can tell me. We have been each other's rocks for so long that it is hard not having him here. I don't tell him everything either because he has enough going on that he doesn't need to be over there worried about what is happening here. Its like in a split second he went from being my best friend to just a friend. He will always be my best friend but we just can't talk about stuff like we can when he is home. For our wedding we were given a daily devotional for couples book. I think I am going to talk to him about trying to do it while he is over there. Maybe it will help lift both of our spirits and help us stay connected to each other. There are times that we really do not have stuff to talk about and this will help us have something to talk about. Since we are able to talk daily this might be a good thing. I'll have to figure out how it will work when/if there are days we can't talk. I have been wanting to do it since we got it, but didn't know how to do it with him being in gone so much, but this might be a good thing to do while he is gone.

Yesterday I went and had lunch with my favorite Navy Mom. I left with 2 bags of books for both me and Jason. He asked that I get him some books, but I do not know what he would like so she gave me a varity and if he finds an author or type of book he enjoys I can buy more of them. I also found some books based on the tv show CSI that I think he will like since he loves shows like that. For his birthday he got all the seasons of NCIS.

Today I had to go in for an ultrsound of my liver. My enzymes have been elevated since last December. I think the tech thought she had to break a rib to get the pictures she needed.

I went today and had lunch with one of my BFFs. It is so nice to be able to go and talk and not have to think about everything that is going on right now for an hour or 2.

J saw my last blog about the caller, he said I know it was ________ and if it happens again to tell this person to F off. He understands I can't be attached to a computer all the time and if the worse thing I do while he is gone is go to the mall, he will consider himself very lucky as long as I don't spend our whole life savings, since he knows I am an emotional shopper.